Blue Christmas

 It doesn't feel like the holiday season. Yesterday definitely didn't feel like Christmas at all. We did our best to make the most out of the day despite being without Mom--who is, arguably, the rock and the glue for our family.

While we ultimately enjoyed being together and supporting each other, there was definitely a heavy cloud floating over us throughout the day. 

I know it could be so much worse. Even though Mom is sedated and can't respond to us right now, at least she's here. I know that there are people who are so much worse off. But this is easily the hardest trial my family has gone through. Dad and I are heartbroken that she's this sick. I never, ever would've thought this would happen to her. Not that you can ever prepare, but gosh, this has been the shock of a lifetime. 

This is just...hard.


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